An introspective moment

Non-verbal communication is something we develop on our own. There are clues we give out to others about who and what we are. We're not aware of most of it, and many times we're trying to give false information.

Giving out false or inaccurate signals is a form of staying in the closet. Not letting anyone else know who you really are. There are advantages to doing this, if it's done right.

So, are you in the closet about something? Are you in the closet to yourself or only to others?

Once upon a time, I knew myself very well. One day I chose to be someone else. It was then that it first started, I guess. It meaning my the closeted me. Hiding from myself. Oh, I'd let myself out in odd and unexpected ways every now and then, but for the most part I stayed hidden.

Then the false me and the me in the closet started to meet somewhere in the middle. Now I don't know me. I think I do, then something comes around to let me know I'm not being truthful to myself.

I guess I like the closet too much to give it up. I used to be in the closet and then I came out. Then there was another closet, and I had to fight my way out of that one. Still there are other closets. I step out of them every now and then, but the frightening thing about leaving closest is stepping into the spotlight.

Why do we have these closets? To protect ourselves. To protect ourselves from others, their opinions, their criticisms, their emotions. We do it to keep jobs, loved ones, and the steady pattern of life we've wrap ourselves in, that comfort zone.